Friday, February 8, 2019

2019. -- A Life Before You

It's again this time of the year, when I got to visit my blog page and grumbled of how last year went so fast, one couldn't even notice. 2018, why did you end already? While in the meantime, I know that its again "life" that kept me busy, all these hectic, and mess and everything life has to offer, the drama, the ups and downs, the bliss and also the heartbreak.

2018, I would say, was indeed a year. The year that again, taught me a lot about life. When 2017 taught me a lot on surviving and trying hard finishing my academics journey, being stranded away and lived a "prihatin" life with strangers I barely knew for 45 days, and a little bit of drama to my love life -- well that's how I remembered 2017 was going.

2018? It taught me a lot about, how living the reality feels like. To become an adult and take responsibility over the decision we choose. About again realizing, that not all that we want, we could have -- after months having it together, that finally we had a grasp of our lives, that we turned into some self-centered ego human who thought that we could have anything as long as we fight for it.
-- turns out again, life doesn't happen that way.

Its indeed a punch, a hard punch for us to be back to our sane thought and realization, to be self-conscious enough, that whatever we went through, no matter how much we suffer and put our best effort for it, if its not meant for us, it just will, never be. Only if I was such naive enough to realize and put my self together. I was that desperate.

To 2019,
I don't expect much from you. I just wish, that maybe all these healing would finally come to an end. That I will have my life together again, because now that I know, all that I want in life is serenity. As if its the first thought of me having this blog page. To start over new, to have a serene life, out of the unpleasant reality.

Major C,
   -- El.

Sunday, March 25, 2018

Hello, 2018 - it's been a while.

It feels great to have time of our own and be back here again, checking on my blog, that it hits me realizing that it has been so long since the last time I posted and updated my life in here.

So, what is it? The things that basically took my time away that I had not been able just to come visit or even stop by here. (I literally had not been for once checking on my blog - I know it saddens me, also.) It's just.... that I have to do life. It feels nice to stop by here, indeed. Again taking a break from  our boring life --routine, and again its the time for only me and my own mind.

It is not that "the boat has sailed", its just me reaching another step in life, its just now that life has not always been so easy anymore. But thanks to that, in this case - we will always find our ways to learn, and improve and most importantly to get through the day, each time.

It was nice, after I finished my thesis and final project that I still got time to take care of several documents as the requirement for uni graduation, and after that we still had time to take on another adventure which was us going to Bromo. aaand on mid of December we were on our uni graduation (which I am not sure why I haven't posted it here, guess that ain't nobody had time for that :'>)

Then after graduation I found myself busy bc I had to pack and move back to my hometown again bc I had already finished my study which then I had no more responsibility to complete anymore in Oslo. It was indeed quite hectic - but we went through it anyway. And suddenly it was New Year Eve, as far as I knew that I had to get a job real quick bc I was no longer could ask my foster family for pocket money anymore (saad).

I thank Allah Swt for granting my prayer as quick as I have never expected it. I know that God may not always grant and give what we wanted, but indeed that He will always grant for what we need, and it is truly acceptable.

I remember I applied for job vacancy on Dec 28, then right two days after that, I got a notification that I was invited for an interview for the next two days. I was surprised bc I only  had two days to prepare for my very first interview, lol. Imagine that I had never been on an interview before that it scares me to death for me to face my very first interview. It was stressing me out until it made me physically sick right on the night on New Years Eve, lol. But looking back at it now, I feel funny, but once again that its okay, we went through it anyway.... and the best thing yet is I got the job! Alhamdulillah~

And now that's the thing that has been keeping me busy, to fulfill my responsibility of my new job. Its hard adapting to new life, new ambiance, I am still adapting tho it's been 3 months now. And for now, I hope that whatever life put us through, whatever universe throw at our faces, no matter how much we stumble and fall, may it help us to learn and get bigger. 

- May the hardship we face, shape us for the better we are.

Sincerely, Ela.

Thursday, November 23, 2017

BALI PHOTO DIARY #2 - Pura Tirta Empul

As a tourist visiting new places and joining an arranged tour, you would likely to head to such main tourism object. Bali itself known for its traditional culture which still stick throughout the time besides its sandy and wavy beaches for surfing or tanning. And here we were, at the second day of our tour in Bali we went to visit one of its old heritage which was then called Pura Tirta Empul. Pura itself is a place with ancient stones and temple used for Hinduism to pray, which makes the area is a sacred place.

Tuesday, November 7, 2017

BALI PHOTO DIARY #1 - Popo Danes

It actually took me exactly a year to finally publish this post. Well, I'm sorry and please pardon my reckless and forgetful self hiks. As you always know, I wouldn't really be here if I had a lot to work on, even though sometimes I would still be here despite my crazy work only just to escape from the mad world and find my peace for a second.

Monday, September 18, 2017

Those Who Helped Me Hold On

Alhamdulillah that Allah Swt still surround me with good people who's willing to be with me through the rooler coaster of life. Alhamdulillah I could always count on them and they willing to help me in the midst of early morning when I had my most hectic days hiks. Then here I am presenting you, my literal susah-senang partner, hiks. The ones I spent most of my college time, literally through fun and hard times; ngebolang sama mereka, ambis juga sama mereka hiks.

1. Annisa Hadny Zakiyaturrahmah

The mother, the older sister of ours. Alhamdulillah makasih banyak ya Nisaak!
Thank you for your prayer, your patience in listening to my keluh kesah semasa studio, your never ending support and motivational quotes that never fails lifting up the mood, your patience in teaching me stuffs and especially the time you've spent with us even though you don't really have to hiks. Thank youuu, saat di saat saat terakhir ku panique belum buat video dan kamu hadir memberikan tutorial hiks alhamdulillah, makasih banyak ya Nisaaak.. :''')

2. The Kopla yet Always There - "TIM SAKSES"

Teman lala lolo, yang hampir setiap hari nginep, dari bangun tidur sampe tertidur-tidur. Susah bareng, dari panik sampe nangis semuanya udah ngerasain, insya Allah seneng juga bareng-bareng terus wkwk. Thank you my friends, my personal human diaries and couch potatoes; Song Prasetya Sujanra, Leoni Damarani dan Ariani Nurfakhirah. I can't actually believe that we did it together. Alhamdulillah, rencana lulus bareng alhamdulillah kesampaian dengan kalian hiks ku terharu sekali. Thank you Leoni for always randomly providing us some snacks whenever she had one when working on Studio! Thank you guys, for your time - every second, every moment we've spent together after all this time, even though at the last submission date of studio I couldn't make it to work together at Sujan's. but still thank you for everything. :'') x

3. Salma Ali Basalamah

Temanku yang sempat hilang tak berkabar karena sering pulang finally be here again, hiks. One of those I'm mostly glad to befriended with. The most random - the one's who's willing to accompany me when I asked to go on a /artificial/ date with me, lol. The one's who's sincerely asking whether they could help and actually helped me in buying snacks for the lecturers & examiners, hiks. My literal life savior - krn tangannya yang panjang bukain gerbang kosan akuh meskipun besoknya sama ibu kos jadi digembok pagernya hiks wakaka
Thank you very much my cherry berry for everything you've done and every kindness and support you've given, I'm sorry if I'm not yet able to be that kind of friend you always needed, but one thing for sure is that you know that I always pray for Allah Swt to return your every good deeds, and for Allah Swt to always light your way and help you in whatever path you are going. Good luck working on your research and final project! Don't forget to enjoy the process, insya Allah I will be near whenever you need, mwah <3

4. Fauziah Praba & Ismaniasita Nur Febrianti

Terima kasihhh banyakkk Ucikkk - for being kind enough to pick up early morning when I had my final seminar and accompany me hehe terhura hiks wkwkw. Thank youuuu Sitaaa; partner galau, partner MMA yang kalo lagi ngerjain bareng di lattetude suka bengong krn mikir dan kl lagi gitu suka ngeliat ke arah gue sampe gue bingung wakaka just then thankyuuuuu <3

Thankyou my literally partner susah senang, sukses terus buat kita kedepannya. Semangat revisian bagi yang revisi, semangat garap jurnal, semangat terus buat kedepannya. Semangat Idang yang besok Senin sidang, semangat Salma, semangat Ucik, we'll always be near whenever you needed. <3

You guys know that every kindness and good deeds will always be remember to whoever receiving it, so thank very much for literally being kind to me and literally sticking up to the thick and thin. I honestly don't know how else I'm gonna survive my college years - especially these past few months when we worked on our final project. I'm sorry if I'm not yet able to return all those bliss you guys have given, but sure thing is I always try my best to be a good friend to y'all and pray that Allah will always blessing our way in whatever we do.

Alhamdulillah masih dipertemukan dengan orang-orang baikkk, bersyukur sekali rasaya bisa menjalani kuliah bareng-bareng kalian semua hehe terima kasih sudah mau diajak dan mengajak senang bersama serta ambis bersamaaa, terima kasiiiih!

Best regards, ur one and only elctrc. <3